We are watching The Polar Express, and I have to wonder how people come up with crazy stories like this. Tom Hanks is really talanted though. I just don't like how he does the conductor part.

This movie/ book... story.. adresses the issue of 'Seeing is believeing' which I don't agree with. That's like saying 'I don't believe in anger. I don't believe in love or happiness. I can't see it.' I don't know I guess that was a bad comparison.

 

This movie isint so bad, but it's not great. Their voices are slightly scary. Yes, I think so.

 

Well, I think I'm going to visit Brett today. We we're going to watch football but he doesn't have the channel its on. Lame. Whatever. We might watch Billie Madison. I still feel bad, because I dont have any money or any brilliant gift ideas for people for christmas. Whatever. :( I'll figure something out.

I totally hit him in the head with a fork. AHHHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAA.
Yeah I felt bad but I dont now!!! DOUCHE.


Just kidding. We are watching foooooooooohhhhhttttballlll. yes Yes. Seahawks lost, mother fuckers. Ass dick weiners. Yes. We are now watching the Saints and the Cowboys. I don't really care who wins, but I want to see who is going to the playoffs. Yes Yes.


Well, anyways. New Podcast. Check it out. Peace.


Crue Show Podcast

So my Mom is doing pretty good, I went and visted her yesterday, and Im going to stop by after school.

Its kind of wierd with nobody in the house in the morning, and just him here at night. Usually I can hear her laughing at something down the hall. Yeah, so I love my Mom, laugh it up. She can be mean but whos Mother hasnt been?

Anyways,

So, shes supposed to be coming home Saturday. Sweet. Though I have to say I really like that I can be as loud as I want in the mornings. I can have my music way up and everything. Dance around like a bafoon and walk around without pants on. Ahhhhahaha.

Well I'm going to be starting a writing project here soon I think. This one I want to step up what I usually do. So it might be a while before anybody reads it or anything. Lots of editing to do. Hmm. Re-reading Naked Lunch. It's actually not that confusing to me to read two books at a time. Yay.

Talked to Brett for a long long time on the phone last night, and I think he is beginning to feel al ittle better. So Sunday we's be watchin foooooohtball. Yessss.

Well, I must be on myway

Life is okay.
Considering the recent events, I am suprisingly happy.
I feel free at the moment.
I dont know its wierd,
I guess i've lost myself in the world of school bells and gym sounds and school buzz.
Homework Im keeping up with,
with the exception of one stubborn doesnt-want-to-admit-the-truth person, everybody in my life is doing pretty good.
Yes, some sickness going around, but they are getting better.
My Mom was up for a little bit today.
Which is really really good considering she had her surgery only yesterday.
So thats good.
Well, Im really busy trying to keep up with school and the house and everything.
But Im doing my best,
and I love you all sincerley.


OHHH PS to the hippies.
Im thinking.. Friday? All of us? Episode 4? I think so I think so.
And Shelby. Saturday possibly?
Though,
I am not sure when my Mom is coming home from the hospital.
So we will play it by ear.
Hmm hmmmmmm..


Love you all very very much-o
+Christen

Todays Seattle game was amazazing.

23 to 20 maaaaahahahahahahahaha.

I thought it was great

Linkage::::

Crue Show Podcast

 

its okay ignore me

just try and forget my presnece.

doesnt matter
wont matter

Im worthless in your eyes

no no

 

 

I had to trip myself apart to get here to this, to understand something about my heart and mind and rip open eachpore of my skin to this. this feeling of decay and rot that resides within me. I hide it, he is hidden so well but he is a little mosntster riding the organs severing the flesh. edit nothing look not listen to your heart listen to your heartt you have to recognize th beats

you have to lisetn to the rhythm identify the sound, pick out which chamber means the most and stick with it. Which one means the most? I think we all choose something different. We are all different, but we all want the same things. Womean and men challenging the other. I cant belive the heartbreak with in this society. We are all far too overbbearing

nick is an annoying individual. he alwayys get invilved in my coversations I hate that dont I I hate him for it and I hate listening to him. He is arrogant quite frequently. Him and her are made for each other. They can bask in each others sick venomous low. Ugh I sound like an idot. But Im not supposed to be thinking about this., Im just supposed to write

to type

not to think

just feel

dont spell

just feel

 

 

what am i talknabout

ive fallen behind.

this world of mine is falling

and i cant get my trunk open

we are too often and too easily offended.

 

 

remartks are just remarks

get on with life and moive on. Nobody can make you feel inferiror if you dont let the,. prove yourself to them and make something of yourself

 

the sky was blue that day. the day that it fell for us. crushing us all into baclk oblivioun. I always dream of the sky on my body making it crumble. It makes me sweat in my nightmares. What does this sky represent? Anything? The falling of love of soiety, but relationshop. I suppose I am afreaid of a lot of things. I check my locks a lot. Just to make sure it really is locked. Why? Why am I like this. I cant even belive what I am feeling right now. Its like a building warmness fdeep inside me. I dont acare about anyting U dont give one rats shit ass about what is going on in my world or your world

all i care about is figureing out where I am coming from. I dont understand it as much as you dont.

 

 

WHAT>!?!?!? WHAT IS THIS?!?!? I am loosing it., ive finally lost it. I can feel my mind slipping further and gffurther awya

but tistunneldrew my attention away for a minute and rug me backk in like it neever even mattered. Enthrall me galeleio. Tnthall me shock rocker.

What an insulting word. Naive. I think people toss it around a lot to people they don't like just to make them feel like crap.

 

Ive been listening to a lot of comedy routines recently, and if theres one thing that I've noticed, is that people like to watch out of the norm people. You know what I mean? I mean come on. There aren't a whole lot of people like Ron White out there that will sip Scotch and smoke a cigar while talking about the days in his life where he didn't drink scotch. Sure, you can find that back water mississippi, but you just dont hear that stuff when you are in a big city, or even a mediocre one like where I life.

Or, Demetri Martin for example. Brilliant comic. Seriously. He has to be one of my favorites. If you ever get the chance give him a listen becuase he has some awesome material. Though some people wouldn't agree.

Anyways,

I was just thinking earlier today, that telling someone they are one in a million is pretty much an insult. There are 300 million americans, and 6 BILLION people on this earth. Thats the same thing as saying 'Hey dude, you're one of 6,000 copies'

Oh...

great.

 

It's just a sad compliment if you think about it.

   THE SEAHAWKS WON BY ONE POINT TODAY!!!!!!!!

I find that exciting. Hopefully Alexander and Hasslebeck will be back in it soon, they need the wins.

Seems Jeremy Bollack (sp?) (Boba Fett) [and if you dont know who boba fett is.. i suggest you skip this post] is in a new British Comedy series. This excited me for two reasons.

1. Its Boba Fett.. come on..

and

2. British comedies are usually funny to americans... because we aren't british.

not to say that british people are dumb or anything, so don't take it that way.
That's to say, that the british tend to have a very different perception of what is funny. Usually I find the antics a little odd and very entertaining, but I suppose that is how they look at our sit coms. Hah.

Anyways, Looking forward to the premiere of Starhyke. Yes.

I was waiting for a commercial, for the end of show to ask my Dad to move his car.
They love Desperate Housewives, they watch it every week and sometimes, I join in the brigade. Rare occasions though. So some character got shot in a grocery store or something and my Mom starts tearing up. I looked over at her. She reminded me of a scared little kid then. Her face round and red, eyes glassy and filled with that teeming sorrow.

I guess my parents are cool. There are just things about them that are completely silly. Somewhere deep down I wish that I could have that flat out unconditional love. I don't understand where and when I became so jaded. It's just.. I don't wanna watch them dance around, or cry, or say 50 year old people things. I've been watching that since before I could talk. I AM SICK OF IT.

I need a vacation, all by myself. But I don't get one for another few years. Fuck. This weekend I need to spend an evening somewhere other than home.

no no, I don't hate them. You misread me.

Life seems so simple,
so annoying simple if you think about it.
Really.

I've come to a few conclusions about things.
I have decided, that I can't keep myself going forever. So my motivation right now, is the future, and my friends. They seriously keep me from blowing someones head off. Who needs faith in God to get themselves through something? I think that is shit, and god honestly, is a placebo. If you can't depend on yourself what are you gonna do when everyone else is gone? What are you gonna do when something completely horrible happens and you are in a complete rut? Thats ridiculous. God doesn't help me get my school work done, or be obedient.. (hahahaahahahah right..) or clean, or be nice. Thats crap. That is all you, all the time weather you think it is or not.

Whatever, I am pulling a certain teacher move and bitch babbling. Whatever.

Two tests tomorrow, AND parent teacher confrences... and for once I am not petrified at the idea of my parents going and talking to them. Though I am curious as to what my History teacher would have to say about me. I'm pretty sure he isint fond of me.

Well.

I really ought to stop rambling.